i need a change up in monday-sunday

i crave culture and i am seriously lacking. 45 minutes away there is a town with plenty of it, but it's hard for me to make that commute by myself and no one else seems to be interested in anything interesting. it's killing me. i want someone who will take me to a new ethnic hole-in-the-wall restaurant that i've never even heard of. and order something just because they've never tried it before. i want someone who will take me to the theatre and indulge in my daydreams about traveling the world...without bring up the fact we have no money.

Mr. Man and almost any Woman

i think he is secretly unsatisfied is some way...and i just wish i knew why. when i do know why, i try my best to fix it...but i always end up messing it up and not doing it the way he wants. it makes me feel unwanted. it makes me feel undesirable. is it a burden to be around me?

i wish he would just be open with me and tell me what he's really thinking. but i'm pretty sure if i knew what he's really thinking, i would regret ever inquiring.

what is it
my personality?
you feel there is no longer a connection?
the baggage I carry? is it too much?
the sex?
lost attraction?
my negative habits?
do you need more space?

please tell me. things feel different.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older?

472 tomorrows from now
he just can't wait
no time to ask how
in his idealistic state
he asks wouldn't it be nice
though he knows it would
he's only got one vice
and that's his belief it should
with a promise and a ring
806 tomorrows seem so far
he won't write but he can sing
a voice only heard by his car

wouldn't it be nice
i believe it would
and it's hardly a vice
as i think it should
you've got your tomorrows
and the patience needed
i've got my sorrows
more than once i've pleaded
take your voice and use it
give your talent a chance
slice me a piece of your wit
position me in your stance
tomorrow write me letter
look me in the eye
when you say it will get better
lighten my heavy sigh

she asks wouldn't it be nice?