Tuesdays

Why does it feel so difficult to maintain normalcy? My motivation is escaping, and it feels like it takes everything I've got right now to just get up and do what I need to for the day. I enjoy my classes and teachers and everything I am involved in, but sometimes it feels like pulling teeth just to make it through the day. I've been feeling off lately, and I'm not sure I can really describe it. There's this discomfort in my chest, and sometimes it floats to my eyes and falls as tears, while other times it sinks into my stomach; where it stays like a lead weight. I have no reason to feel this way, and the number of things I have in my life to be thankful for outweigh any other possible issue. So why can't I make this feeling go away? Am I selfish?